I’ve realized a lot over the past few days.
1) I’m not comfortable with who I am.
I’m slowly growing up as each day passes. I’ve always thought of myself as a mature kid, but now I don’t know what to think of myself. I’m learning to think more deeply and passionately about many different things. It’s to the point where I’ve confused myself. I don’t exactly know where I stand in my beliefs in many different areas. This is frustrating, as by this age (nearly 18 ..) I always figured I would have a firm understanding of what I believed for the most part.
2) I desire to teach in the church again. But…I’m not strong enough in my faith yet. I’m just a “baby” in Christ. It makes me desire to learn more anfigure out where I stand but it seems so impossible.
3) I believe in science…I believe in evolution, the big bang, etc. etc. It’s all so logical and it makes sense. Literalist frustrate me.