My faith is so weak right now. I feel so lost and jumbled. I hate that when I cry out to god with everything I have and I don’t feel any sense of comfort in return. I can’t understand why it’s like this. I’m so jealous of the people that say they experience god on a regular basis. I’m so jealous of the people that say they feel peace when they cry out to god.
I don’t. I hate it. It is so frustrating and it makes me doubt my faith and salvation. Why isn’t God responding to me? I haven’t changed since I accepted hm. I feel like I am the same person, just with a different goal. I feel like a failure because of it.
I know god isn’t an emotion or a feeling…maybe I expect too much. I just wish he’d show himself to me. Make me believe. Stop my doubt and give me a purpose to follow him.
None of my prayers have showed any sign of being answered. I JUST got saved and I already feel like I’m in a never ending tunnel that cannot reach the light.