First of all. I feel like I haven’t really been all that interesting of a blogger the last week or so. I apologize for that. But my mind is kind of blank on what to ask, or write. So I write little things that I see or read during the day. My apologies…really.
This is a letter I wrote to a friend, I cut some of it out….but this is what I’m going to write on and figure this would be a good insight into it.
Oh, so I asked around about Ians little incident that you find to be a miracle.
Basically what everyone has told me is that medial mistakes happen. I was told several incidents where they had gone to the hospital due to a broken leg, broken arm, etc and was given a cast because they saw in the X-ray that it was broken. Well, they’d go for a check-up like a couple of days or a week or so later and wa la they get an X-ray and there was no break after all. It was a mistake. Reading X-rays aren’t as simple as it seems to most people. I’ve looked at them before a few times myself…they’re confusing and up for mistakes when looking at them.
So thats my explanation. Was probably just a medical mistake when reading the x-ray the first time. Of course the pain was gone when he went back….it wasn’t even broken in the first place. And of course it really hurt when he thought he’d broke he…he’d just messed up his leg…pain last for a while.
Besides, what if God did heal him? Ok. Fine. Then why doesn’t he stop people from getting raped murdered, AIDS, cancer, Katrina, Darfur, etc. A broken leg can cure on its own in like 6 weeks. Why would he heal a leg, but then not do anything about those other more serious things?
Long story short (as I can) I was talking to a good friend of mine about my losing faith and what not. She kept saying how she didn’t understand. Especially after all of the miracles and stuff I witnessed. Honestly, I couldn’t remember any. So she brought up this story of my friend named Ian who had broken his leg, went to the ER and got an X-Ray. The doctors told him he had broken his leg, and they gave him a temporary cast. Then he went back for the real cast soon after and they took another X-Ray* and they told him he did not havea broken leg after all. The doctors were supposedly “puzzled” and held both x-rays up next to each other. So I guess this was supposed to have been a miracle because we had all prayed for his healing before he had gone to the hospital.
So, when she told me this story I was puzzled. I told her I did not think it was God and that there had to of been a medical mistake or something in that nature. But still, I asked and I got pretty much the same response of what I was saying originally. So that is what I went with.
But miracles alone really do confuse me sometimes. I’ve been told different stories about miracles and sometimes I do stand there puzzled. Most of them are healings, of course. And I don’t really have much of a medical knowledge (yet) so my ignorance is probably partly the reason why I sometimes get so amazed. I don’t know. I’ve never actually witnessed an actual healing though. If I saw right before my eyes something amazing happen. Like, a leg or something growing back…or someone with a weird back to where they can’t stand up straight (I can’t remember the name of it…sorry) all of a sudden healed within an instant. Then I would have to stand back and be like “wow, something out of the ordinary just happened here…” And I would have to go from there and definitely have to consider the fact that maybe it was God. But honestly, I don’t think I’ll ever see something like that. And that is why I’m not impressed with the topic of “miracles”.
* This is the story she told me, I do remember this happening but I just don’t/never know/knew all of the details myself. So why they took another x ray I’m not sure.