As a former Christian I always struggled keeping my motivation up to stay a Christian. And obviously, it didn’t work out so hot in the end. Even recently in my transitions back and forth to and from Christianity my main struggle was not having motivation. I felt no conviction, and I just didn’t really care to keep going. So my question is, what keeps you going? What motivates you? Don’t say the love of Christ, because thats cheesy. People tell me “oh, once you experience this salvation there is just no turning back” ok, I experienced salvation, I experienced Christ (or at least I thought I had….I very well could have been mistaken..which is obviously what I believe now…that I was mistaken)…and I’m not a Christian anymore. And I’ve tried to experience Christ now that I’m going through this “doubt” stage. It doesn’t happen, I pray, and get on my knees and everything. I can think of…three…specific times that I was either just on my knees balling begging God to reveal himself to me, or laying down, or something just crying and begging God. He never did, and still hasn’t. That makes me think– well, what the heck am I doing wrong? Which I know that Christians will tell you that there is no specific way to talk to God, its just like talking to a friend. But then, why won’t he respond to me? Which of course leads me to think, well then.he just doesn’t exist!
Anyways, what keeps you going, motivated and stuff to keep up with being a Christian?